Loving your enemies. Sounds easier said that done and honestly a little scary. But it definitely does neither you or them any favors by holding onto anger or past hurts. It doesn’t help you, it just turns you bittter and resentful over time – and who wants to be that!
I know for me there have been people who have let me down, who have disappointed me or not turned out how I expected. But holding onto it doesn’t allow you to move forward, it holds you back thinking about how it used to be or how they hurt you.
Often for me, it’s my own silent unconscious expectations I put on others that lead to me being disappointed. Because they are never going to live up to how I think they should act. That’s all on me!
Instead, I’ll be making strong steps forward to be kind and to just simply try. To be the one to reach out, not because I think it should be their turn or why not them and always me. Not for anything in return but because compassion should always be the response. Because I know the reward is going to be SO much greater in the end!
I’ve been sitting at my desk, ready to study. All the books and notes from my previous session are out and I’m looking like I am ready to go. To an outsider, I’d be looking like a legit study nerd kicking some goals.
But alas. They do not know whats happening. What’s happening on the inside.
I have a lot of study to do. I need to finish this assignment. If i wasn’t studying I would be outside today. Its a nice day. My job, is okay but what about my dream job. What would I do if I could do anything. What is my cat doing? Gee I really love eggs and I didn’t have any for breakfast. I haven’t posted on my blog for a while I miss doing that.
The enemy. My study nemisis. My brain.
How challenging you can be to yourself. That it can be such a battle to try and focus, especially when you know you have to. The times when you need your brain to kick into gear and outperform itself…..instead it disappears down a thinking wormhole that just gets more tangled and lost the deeper in you go.
So here I am – ticking off something on my imaginary list of things to do that aren’t studying, writing a blog post. I feel strangley proud of myself that I’m accomplishing something, but I know thats just a detour from fear. Because I’m going to snap out of this and panic write my essay thats only a quarter complete and due in 4 days.
So dear brain. My friend and foe. My frenemy. We need to get along. We shouldn’t be sitting in the local park with that other guy procrasination slowly kicking the ball around without hitting any goals. We should be smashing those balls out of the park and working closer with proactive guy and finishing what we started!
…or, we could just go watch the olympics. I hear thats good, though I’m not really into sports
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When work days are long and people fickle; walk outside and look up.
Gods nature never lets you down, never gossips, never frustrates, never disappoints – it just looks down on you with simple orange beauty and makes everything peaceful again! 🌤