Back in February we had a message at Church which spoke about Vision. Being clear on what you do want, not focusing on what you don’t want.
Vision is a great thing. It helps to keep you focused on what it is you are going to do next.
However, it is something which is a good and bad thing for someone struggling with infertility because you are completely clear on what you want. You want a child. You want a baby. My goodness, how many of you struggling with the same thing can just completely visualise you with a baby. Its incredibly lovely to think about.
But its also a struggle at times to think about. To visualise your life without one. It can be consuming and overwhelming.
The one thing this message taught me though, 2 months later and re-reading it now, is that its easy to be focused on our own visions. Our own wants. Our visions of what we want to happen can dictate our actions and indeed the direction you take next.
What we should be doing is focusing on God’s vision. On God’s word. We shouldn’t be relying on our own strength about what step to take next but to commit to Christs vision!
If we try to hang onto our perfect ideal of what our life should look like, you will lose it. You will lose focus, and possibly hope.
Instead, hang onto the vision of Christ. Push into Him with your prayers, your desires and your vision.
For whoever wants to save their life will lose it, but whoever loses their life for me will find it.
Matthew 16:25 NIV
In this constant desire to have a family, I know I could NEVER be going through this journey in my own strength, without God. Of course I have my perfect vision of what I want my life to be. The discussions hubby and I have had of how many children we will have and what their names will be have been endless. But I love constantly realising that its through Christ all these things are possible!
It’s in HIS vision, not my own!