expectation vs reality

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It’s a funny thing expectation.I had this expectation of what it would be like when I came back from my mission trip and how it would impact my blogging life. ย I thought it would mean I would have so much to want to blog about having experienced 2 weeks of Cambodia and SHE Rescue Home but its strangely done the opposite.

Post Cambodia I’ve had a blogging block!!!!

I haven’t felt motivated to write anything and as much as I had an absolutely amazing time in Cambodia on the mission trip I haven’t felt compelled to write about it.

Given I’ve spent the last 3 weeks getting back into work, sharing stories with family and friends and actually processing what has happened but the main thing I’ve been doing is figuring out where I go from here. ย  I feel different being back. ย  I feel happier and more content with who I am but the change is actually a new found sense of direction and accepting that what ever direction I do take, it is the right one – because I am a daughter of Christ.

The direction for me now is definitely keeping up momentum and doing all I can at home, to help the SHE home. ย That now, after some awesome revelations of my talents and how I can use them, is organising a SHE Rescue Home Fundraiser event. ย And having just booked a venue and date to have a fundraiser luncheon – the momentum is definitely in full swing!!!

The thing I usually feel about expectation is disappointment. ย And its often disappointment towards others because I expect them to act a certain way when I’ve organised something or expect them to react in my own self conceived way. ย The issue with this is that you are more than likely going to be disappointed in the result because you have ‘imagined’ it a certain way and reality is no way near close to how we often think something will turn out – especially when there are other people involved!!!

But the thing I’ve figured out, for myself, is that expectation isn’t mine. ย  Expectation isn’t in my hands. ย I only have minimal control over what happens. ย I mean I can expect something to turn out a certain way and organise the heck out of it to get it that way – but the way it pans out, the way it ends up happening – it’s definitely not in my hands!!! We all know whose hands it is in ๐Ÿ˜€

That is the turn in direction I’ve had since I’ve come back. ย I guess I knew this – but knowing and acting are two different things. ย  Now I feel confident not only in myself but confident with the faith that I have within myself. ย It’s not about how I expected my life to be with Christ or as a Christian but how it IS being a Christian with Christ in my life and how I have been shaped and changed BECAUSE of that.

The mission trip definitely helped me to overcome some hurdles I had prior and I am so much more happier because of it!!! ย  I felt at the beginning of the year that it was going to be a great year – NOW – I am just so excited about what direction this year is going to take. ย Feels like its just beginning all over again!!!!

Glad to be back on here too – I have been seeing what everyone is up to still, though not so much involved since I’ve been back than I’d hoped. ย It’s definitely a part that I haven’t stopped thinking about – such lovely women. ย But hoping the blogging block is gone – I think its the ol thang of just getting in and doing it rather than saying you’ll do it and doing something else instead. ย  Hope you are all well and happy smiling ladies!!!!ย 

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Hi, I'm Fin... ...a Brisbane foodnerd and lifestyle blogger. Fin

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